I think I have said here before that I think my heart is guarding itself against how difficult the waiting is while seeking to adopt a child. It was such an arduous process in waiting for Ellie’s referral. The waiting time frames doubled during our wait (unfortunately, China is way beyond that at this point). I remember going outside almost every night and looking up at the stars and praying, wondering, dreaming, lamenting…
I told Ryan the other day that, gee, I like the baby-stage, but I LOVE the more independent, verbal pre-school stage. I said I am enjoying her so much right now that it might be a bit difficult to adjust again to the baby stage.
Well, we were in church today and in walked a family who has a couple of birth children as well as a little girl from China that they adopted at about 15 months. I think she is 5 or so now. The mom had a Chinese baby boy in her Ergo as they came in and sat in front of us!
My eyes were glued. While it is not unusual to see a family with a Chinese child, it is unusual to see a Chinese child so young in these parts. I was flooded with the memories of having my sweet Ellie in her carrier in church. I remember the feeling of holding her close to me in the carrier, worshiping with her finally in my arms. I thought back to the bonding process with hindsight now and couldn’t wait to feel Treasure in the carrier – in my arms.
I believe this is going to be a peaceful child. I feel so much peace when I think of Treasure. Anyone who knows – and loves – Ellie knows she has been “arduous” at times, just like her wait (that has been so much better since she turned 3!). Even though I had such an emotional reaction today when I saw this new little guy, I don’t feel impatient. I just feel confident…Treasure is meant to be part of our family and Treasure will come to us in God’s perfect time.
Beautiful!