I wanted to continue my post concerning Ellie’s comments about my nursing her when she was a baby. That comment was made probably sometime in November. Since then she has come up with a game. “Mama, I am a baby polar bear and you are a mama polar bear and you are going to feed me milk.” “Mama, I am a baby kitty and you are a mama kitty and you are going to feed me milk.” You get the point – this has been on her mind. A lot, evidently!

The other night Ryan and Hannah were at Awana’s and just Ellie and I were sitting on the couch having a book reading marathon. (It probably wouldn’t surprise you much to hear that her favorite books are a series of non-fiction books about all sorts of mother animals and their babies that Grandma and Grandpa gave her for her birthday. The alligator book is her favorite – I think because there is a house in it that looks just like Grandma and Grandpa’s house in Florida. We’ve actually seen alligators in the pond behind their house.) Anyway, after the third story and a session of “You be the Mama…”, I thought I would bring up the conversation about when she asked me if I nursed her as a baby.

I tiptoed in, not wanting to be inappropriate age-wise or tell her more than she was interested in. She said yes, she remembered that day. Then, I started telling her more of her story. That she had been born from a birth mommy and birth daddy and that they live in China. It is sad but that not all the Mommy’s and Daddy’s in China can keep and take care of their sweet babies. But God planned for her to be our little girl and made everything work out for Mama and Daddy to come to China to adopt her.

I also told her that I wish she had been born from my tummy and she said that she wished that too. I said that even though I wish that, I was going to be happy about the fact that she is here now. I told her that God promises that everything always works together for the good of those who love Jesus and that I hope she will think that about her adoption story.

Wow, I have read about and prepared my heart and mind for these talks for years now. I felt prepared and the words just came out and I think she really understood. There’ll be more talks, more layers added over the years, but for now, I think I can say, she’s fine. She’s bonded, adjusted, accepted her place in our family and knows a little bit more of who she is. I think I’ll go hug her now.

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