Waiting for Ellie was a hard, frustrating phase of our life. For us adoption became the way to extend our family after experiencing and coming to terms with infertility. We were told when we started that we should be home with our child within 12 months. Then China slowed down- everyone in the adoption world has watched this program slow to a snails pace over the past few years. All told, we were home with Ellie Grace in 22 months. Many more have waited much longer- but we did our time. Of course, all the pain and wondering and worry has faded away as we are very much enjoying this child who emerged from her bedroom this morning having already donned her princess outfit for the day. Today she is Fuchsia Princess in a velour pink and sparkle-y dress that used to be her sisters’.
During the “paperwork portion” of the adoption process for Treasure I have been guarding my heart against the frustration of the “wait”. I have stated that while I want a third child, but am perfectly happy with my two. My days are full and they bring me much joy and satisfaction (and exhaustion and laundry). I often say that while I needed Ellie Grace, I want Treasure.
I can feel that those protective layers peeling away as I am fantasizing about this new little one a lot more. I dreamed about the two little ones last night (Ellie and Treasure) running around, playing together. I literally awoke this morning with a smile on my face.